「神愛世人」的感覺 “The Feeling of ‘God Loves the World’”

中生哥，想和你分享一個見證：我今天經歷了「神愛罪人」的感覺了。

事情是這樣的：有個學生的媽媽想要我的手機號碼，說爸爸找我談事情，卻不明說到底是為了何事。我找了學生來問，她坦承她犯了大錯（踩到紅線的那種錯，姑隱內情），臉上滿是壓力。

我動了慈心，因著她的坦白認罪原諒了她。犯錯的事實依然存在，但我是真心饒恕她。我跟她說對她的信任不會改變，我們的關係也不會改變。她流下眼淚，只是忍住沒有出聲。

饒恕，釋放了她的壓力。我彷彿看見當年在GIC時，中生哥帶著我做認罪禱告的畫面：在一句一句的禱告聲中，主耶穌赦免了我的罪，而我也是哭的唏哩嘩啦。罪被赦免的「重生感」我是親身經歷過的，只是我無法確知：赦免我的神，真的對我犯過的罪不再記念嗎？

今天，我確信神真的不記念我的罪，因為祂愛我，願意為我付上贖價，只因我認罪悔改。就像今天我面對犯錯的學生，我心中沒有一絲一毫對她的錯的記念，我只想協助她把問題解決。如果我心中有一絲一毫的記念，我無法真誠的展現對學生的愛與信任，真心的饒恕她。

神的啟示真的很奇妙。這只是我老師生涯的一個尋常事件，卻讓我第一次體會到，聖經中所言神對世人＼罪人的愛，是真真確確的真理。

Brother Zhong-Sheng, I want to share a testimony with you:

Today, I experienced what it feels like when God loves sinners.

Here’s what happened:

A student’s mother wanted my phone number, saying the father needed to talk to me, but she didn’t say why. I called the student in to ask, and she admitted that she had made a serious mistake—one that crossed a clear boundary (I’ll leave out the details). Her face was full of pressure and fear.

My heart was moved with compassion.

Because she confessed honestly, I forgave her.

The fact of her mistake still remained, but I truly forgave her. I told her that my trust in her wouldn’t change, and our relationship wouldn’t change. She shed tears, though she held back from crying out loud.

Forgiveness released her from her burden.

In that moment, I suddenly recalled the scene back at GIC when you led me in a prayer of confession: as we prayed sentence by sentence, the Lord Jesus forgave my sins, and I cried uncontrollably. I had personally experienced that “new birth” feeling when one’s sins are forgiven.

But one thing I could never be completely sure of was this:

Did God truly no longer remember my sins?

Today, I am certain.

God really does not remember my sins—

because He loves me,

because He was willing to pay the price for me,

and all simply because I confessed and repented.

Just like when I faced my student today:

there wasn’t the slightest trace of remembering her wrong in my heart.

All I wanted was to help her solve the problem.

If even a tiny bit of resentment had remained,

I would not have been able to sincerely show love, trust, or genuine forgiveness toward her.

God’s revelation is truly wondrous.

This was just an ordinary incident in my teaching career,

yet it allowed me, for the first time, to truly feel that

what the Bible says about God’s love toward the world—toward sinners—

is undeniably true.